devoted

I am 18 guy, what you should know about me:
-I am someone who spends time in philosophy and theology, do long walks, and I do this most of the time beside sometimes playing games (gd, barotrauma, the forest) when I dont feel awful or meaningless. I am a Christian, though I dont belong to any denomination and thats not gonna change beacuse I know that it is the truth, even if I am not happy about myself, hate many things about this world...
- Its not up to me if I will find my other half, but what I plan about my life is seeking better and deeper understanding of the world on both emotional and intelectual aspect through math, logic, philosophy... I will spend time going through these topics, maybe write down some books, debate and doing little things like outdoors, enjoying some games or talks no matter the awkardness or silece, I couldnt care less about having money, or about career neither do I have anything to give anyone beside my time and connection.
- If you are person who has no problem with changing partners(or if you think things like that is replacable or that you have to move on), if you go on parties and do things like that, have friends and accept this modern abomination of society just dont bother anymore
- If you are not any of that, if you are always honest and have good intentions (I am not expecting anyone to just come and share their personal info, but I expect not to blantly and shamelessly lie beacuse you have no reason to), if you can actually prioritize connection over everything, if you are not afraid of silence or just being around everytime, if you are a female (or person with very feminine or gentle characteristics), if you want to mutually understand and be there for each other always, to be emotionally open, I have good intentions and I will be gentle, caring and understanding. I am never going to mean any harm to you and even when there are no things to talk about we can enjoy each others company...